Analysis for monica, 17 December 1998

This is how you described the room:

the room is cold. the walls of the room are pale, and the paint is chipping in various places. there are wires to hang paintings that no longer exist, and rectangles of off-colored paint as evidence of their existence. the only furniture in the room is the bed that i am sitting on. on the floor are old newspapers and corpses of starved cockroaches.

The initial room is the subject’s childhood. What interests us here is the general atmosphere of the room, in addition to the level of furnishings described by the subject. An uncomfortable room suggests a childhood that was devoid of happiness. No furnishings at all tells of either a complete absence of memories from that time or active suppression of said memories.

You wanted to leave the room.

The subject wanted to become an adult.

This is how you described the forest:

tall trees -- lots of tall trees, perhaps pine. at the edge of the forest, they are sparse, but as i look deeper into it, i can see that the forestation becomes dense, the pine trees now accompanied by smaller trees -- oak, spruce, maple. despite the thick vegetation, the sunlight manages to break through the branches and light the forest floor.

The forest is growing up, and the trees are those adults with whom the subject interacted at that time. Average lighting tells us that the subject received enough attention from the adults to be guided but not oppressed. Tall trees imply that the adults had a strong influence on the subject.

This is how you described the path:

the path is not as much of a path as it is a narrow clearing that winds its way through the forest. the intricacies of its turns are clearly visible, but the ground that accompanies it appears untrodden.

Adolescence is represented by the path through the forest. The lack of evidence of fellow travelers suggests strong feelings of isolation at that time. The visibility of the path tells us that the subject had a good idea of what to expect from adolescence. A narrow path suggests that the subject had limited options for emotional growth at this time.

This is how you described the water:

an oasis. the path has led me to a small pool of water, apparently part of a river. surrounded by almost-tropical vegetation, the pool is refilled by a breathtaking waterfall, and exits quietly back into the trees. the water is green-blue, not clear enough to see through, but not muddy either -- simply clean and refreshing.

The water is the subject’s sexuality. What interests us here is the clarity of the water (representing attitude) and its movement (representing libido). Clear water tells us that the subject has no issues regarding sex. Fast-moving water indicates a strong, active sex drive.

When you came to the water, you crossed it.

The subject is open to new sexual experiences.

This is how you described the cup:

a tall, curved glass -- the kind you might find a daquiri in. it is empty with the exception of some remaining red liquid at the bottom of the glass. it appears to be new -- no scratches or scuffs on the glass, only a small chip on the lip of it.

The vessel, or specifically the practicality of the vessel, is how the subject approaches marriage or bonding. A decorative container indicates that the subject views marriage as a romantic adventure.

You left the cup behind.

The subject is not interested in marriage.

This is how you described the key:

the key is very old. the head of it looks like a clover with three leaves, and the part that fits in the lock only has only one rectangle protruding where modern keys have a jagged edge. it is dark brown in color -- perhaps from the weather, perhaps from age, perhaps it has always been that color. given the antiquity of the key, it seems natural that it open something similar in age. an old trunk, maybe? or perhaps the door to an old mansion?

The key is the ideal career for the subject. What interests us here is how the key appears (representing how others view the career) and what it may open (representing the subject’s goals for the career). Old-fashioned keys suggest that the subject desires a traditional career. Having the key open a house, car, or other commonplace use tells us that the subject has no extraordinary expectations about a career.

You confronted the bear.

In a crisis, the subject prefers the direct, no-nonsense approach.

When you came to the wall, you jumped over it.

The wall represents death: by jumping over it, the subject not only acknowledges death but has come to accept its finality.

See another test from 1998